Wicked Kiss

He even pushed me closer to him, making me feel his warmth while kissing me deeply. Even though the sensation that I am currently feeling is priceless, there's still tears that is flowing on my cheeks. The feeling of mixed emotions of pain, happiness, fear is making me so sad. I don't know what is really happening to me?

I never felt this kind of feeling before. But why now, I feel like everything I have is slowly getting away from me.

And that was because of the man who's kissing me right now? Why am I scared to be his? Why am I still scared to be against my own principles, where in fact I already ruined it? Is this because of what happened in the past? Am I still scared about that?

I know that what happened before is pretty traumatic, but is it enough that I am like this now?

I am a woman with dignity and class, people love me and adore me for what they believe and for what they see. They don't even know a single of me. The thing that they only knew that, I am Erza Scarlet Quevas, the queen of silence and perfections. They're stupid. They believe in me just because I'm good not because they really know me.... well.

Astriar stared at me after a long breathless kiss we had. I admit that his kisses were very romantic and it makes my heart flutter.

He put the escapes of my hair behind my ears, he gently caressed my long brown hair while touching the smoothness of my shoulders.

I didn't hold myself to look at him. It is the first time I saw Sir Astrair this serious. I know him as a blunt guy who always triggers my vexation.

This guy in front of me is telling me that he really loves me. And who am I kidding? He's known of being a Casanova Playboy. But in the end, I just found myself giving in wholeheartedly.

I laughed in sarcasm.

I'm 24 years old, yet I am their employee for almost five years. Aren't you wondering why at young age I managed to work for them?

At the age of 19, I started working to them because of my advance learning.

I graduated with Latin Honors in my university at the age of seventeen in architecture course. I'm so so young and everyone adored me for that. But no one knows the real reason behind my success.

It's an embarrassment to admit that I am not deserving to be the person they adore. I was just a daughter of a father who works as a vendor and a mother that is a prostitute.

I have a beauty that anyone dreamt to possess but sadly. I hate it. It only reminds me of her.

I am silent because I don't want people to be near me. I don't want people to say something bad to me. I don't want them notice me. I only want to be alone, just me, myself.

I grew up without experiencing real meaning of a family. I used to work in advance to prove them that I CAN DO BETTER THAN THEY EXPECTED.

But now. Astrair Grayfaurd, my boss ends up loving me? I wish I never ever heard him say that.

"Sshh... Why are you crying?" He whispered on my ear.

I don't know what to answer him. I don't find this situation best to have a flashback.

Maybe I am feeling this pain right now because I'm scared of loving him. I'm scared that if I'll love him, he will leave me too. I am used to that people I love leaves, but these feelings I have for him, this is so foreign, I never felt like this before.

I was hurt the time I saw him hugged Emerald that he used to do with me. I hate the idea that he is fair in treating his girls. I am afraid to fall in love with him! I am afraid to love someone that I never did before. I am afraid to take the risk. I don't want to be like her! I don't want to be like my mother!

I am scared to love I, because I'm scared to hurt someone and to be hurt!

"Please, leave me alone. "I almost whispered.

I don't want him close to me. I don't want to love him. I still can't, I'm still scared.

"No. That's not going to happen." He said and pulled me back to him.

Only my sobs that is echoing on the whole area can be heard right now. The noise of the flowing water is complementing it.

I can feel that Sir Astrair slightly kissing my forehead. "Shh... Please don't push me away." He whispered that irritated me even more.

I don't want him to act as if he cares for me!

I.....I.... I don't want to give myself a reason to continue this fucking feeling! Please!

"P-ple... P-please stop this, Boss. "I said and hold tightly on his shoulders, the coldness I am feeling slowly subsided.

"No... I don't even know what's the problem, baby. Please tell me." He whispered softly.

I really love his voice. It's husky. But right now, I can feel the pain in those.

I shook my head and buried my face on his chest. No! I'll never tell you the problem! I won't give you the idea!

I looked up to him and our eyes met. His captivating dark blue eyes met mine. I couldn't sense his playful aura; the only evident thing is the softness and care on it.

The feeling of his comfort made my heart flutter rapidly. The feeling of happiness and his sweet incense made me want to kiss him. Why does every time I feel this kind of comfort from other people scares me? I feel like I want to cry. Way back in high school, I clearly remembered my crush, Zereck. I was too young and he's a head of me. The feeling of being young and infatuated almost made me think that I was in love. But sad to say, I am more willing to hide it from him and cry every time I see him with other girls. No one knows my feelings about him, not a single since I got no friends since birth because of my status. All my life I was hurt because of the people around me, and I don't want to feel that anymore. That's the reason why I am living this world in silence, in peace, because I don't want to get included with these things.

"I wish I could read your mind, Erza. " he said and claim my lips.

The feeling of his kisses almost sent me to sleep. He pulled me closer enough for me to feel his heat.

His kisses went down on my cheeks and on my neck.

"You got no Idea how you fucking turned me on, Erza. " he said while slowly unhooking my bra.

I got nervous, we're in the public, someone might see us.

I withdraw from hugging him and just looked at him in his eyes. His eyes were full of desire. As if it's telling me to do anything he wants. I think even though I am not saying anything, he knows what I am doing.

He pulled me to the isolated area of the falls behind the rocks. When we reach there, he kissed me.

Seems like Sir Astrair can't wait any longer and he pulled down his boxers. He kissed me with enthusiasm and... I can feel the fire slowly building inside me. And I think it can't be stopped.

He removed my bra and kissed me on my neck and up on my shoulders. He even bit it slightly. His kisses went down on my breast and stroke it as if it was some kind of marshmallows.

"Oh! " a moan escaped my mouth while watching him staring at my bare chest. I snaked my legs on his hips.

He sucked my breasts feeding himself by his own. I pulled him even closer when I felt the heat quiver in between my thighs.

I can feel his fingers on my thighs, touching it sensually, up until he reached my panties. He slides it down my thighs and officially removed it and put it on above the rocks. The thought of him holding my undies made me blush. Damn! He kissed me again and feel his aroused manhood. I started grinding on him that causes his sweet moan.

"Damn. " he whimpered while slightly biting my earlobes.

He holds my thighs. I thought he will just hold it, but he lifted me up and made me sit on the rock.

I held tightly on his shoulders because of shock.

He spread my legs wider and it made me blush when he stared to my exposed feminine.

Ghod! I think I'm going to burst from embarrassment. I have no idea what is happening but this is so embarrassing.

He slowly coming closer, then suddenly.

"Oohhh~~~" a long erotic moan escaped from my mouth.

In just one lick, it seems like I already reached my zenith!

I dig my nails on his shoulders while he's still licking and lapping me down there.

I want to push his head so much on that spot and open it much wider to give him space but.... I feel so weak that I can't even move an inch.

"Damn... I love you." he whispered and pulled me to the river.

He looked at me then kissed the tip of my nose.

Without breaking an eye contact, he pushed himself inside me while half of our bodies were on the water.

I hugged him tightly and bit my lips. He's pounding now to the point that the water is making noise too.

He placed me on the rock and pushed himself much closer and closer. "Ah! Ohh" I can't help.

I heard him muttering something I didn't understand while pounding too fast!

"Oh! Ghhaadddd!!! " I said while reaching my peak!

I hugged Astriar and kissed his neck while he continues pounding himself for his turn.

I heard him uttered my name as he shivered with pleasure and cum inside me.

I heard his long sigh as he kisses my ears and the left side of my temple.

"I Love You, Erza. I love you. "

I didn't answer him, I just hold on to his shoulders for support.

"I love you too. "I finally admitted to myself as the flashback starts to overcome my dreams.

****

"Elrah, please don't do this to me and to your daughter." Said the middle-aged man to the woman who's putting colors on her face.

"If I won't do this, we won't be able to send Erza in school." Said the woman in calm but irritated voice.

I am only sitting on the table, watching them.

"That work is ruining your dignity, Elrah. " my father said.

"You can't stop me." She said and went out wearing very skimpy clothes.

I'm just 3, but I can understand them. I truly understand what is happening.

Seeing my father cry because my mother has to do the dirty work again is very painful, I don't think I can stand this pain.

I can still remember how our family go broken just because my mother left with an old rich man.

Seeing her smile and seeing my father cry makes me want to shout at her.

How merciless. For once, I prayed that she wasn't my mother.

****

I woke up from a very bad dream. I don't want to remember that again, it disgusts me.

I looked at the surroundings and I realized that we are already on his villa.

That dream was a nightmare. And I don't want to remember it over again. But also, I can't deny the fact that it gave me the courage to face the problems and to know the real meaning of satisfaction, because my mother failed on that part.

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