Wicked Kiss

I woke up when the heat of the sunlight darted on my face. I moved on the other side then I realized that I am in pain down there. I frantically get up when I clearly remembered the thing, we did last night.

I looked at the other side of the bed, but I was alone.

I was already wearing my T-shirt and my underwear that made me conclude that maybe he was the one that put these on me.

It took me a couple of minutes to realize what just had happened last night.

We did it for the second time. But it felt like my first time. Damn!

I grabbed my shorts immediately on the floor and wore them.

I have no idea what time it is, but I think I'm really damn late!

When I arrived at the small villa, I immediately pulled a towel to take a bath.

"Miss Erza!!!" Lucy shouted that made me immediately turn my head. She sounds like someone panicking.

Then there I saw them running to me.

"Miss, Erza! Damn, I thought you got kidnapped by the natives!" Mira said almost crying.

"Where did you go?! We are so worried!" Clara said irritated.

I wanted to laugh so hard, but I only smiled instead, I don't want them to look even more abnormal, I appreciate their care. If only they know about what happened last night.

I saw Gadjin and Enzo in some distance. Well, I never thought that I am seeing Enzo this handsome, his hair got dishevelled that maybe made his looks roguish. His jaw lines were even more evident. He really looked handsome. "Miss Erza! I know that I look handsome and hot, no need to stare at me like that." Gadjin said as if I was the one staring at him.

I feel like my eyes got chinky because of this feeler guy. I hope he got hit with a rock.

I am shocked when Enzo grabbed me and make me face him. He's holding my shoulders, even my team gasp from what he did.

"What the fuck Erza! Where the hell did you go! You have no idea how worried I am! Do you even care about our feelings! "I am almost closing my eyes because he's shouting at me.

My heart is beating so loud. I still can't believe that he just shouted at me.

"Enzo!" Lucy in a warning voice.

Enzo didn't even look at her, his attention was all on me.

"You have no right to question me, Enzo. "I firmly said.

He closed his eyes tightly and removed his hands from my shoulder. The moment he turned his back, he kicked a rock on his way. "Ouch!" We heard Breezy.

We all looked at her, she's glaring Enzo while holding his feet that I think got hit with that rock.

"S-sorry, Miss Julia. " Enzo said that's obviously tensioned.

"Sorry your face! Ugh!" She shouted and walked out. Maybe she'll go to the site.

Enzo just looked at the soil while continue walking away from us.

***

The girls came with me on the falls. It was located amidst the forest like area, a bit isolated but the fresh water is so clear and nice.

When I reached the working site, I saw Emerald that is already designing the exterior design of GFC. She's wearing a yellow construction headgear plus her skinny jeans and lose T-shirt.

I looked at my shirt, I'm only wearing a below the knee shorts and a plain shirt. I also have my headgear in case of emergency.

"Uh yes... yes, wider, I think? "I heard Sir Astrair said to the engineer he is talking with.

Actually, we don't really need to hire lots of engineers since all of my boss are engineers.

The branch of GFC in Manila is a firm of engineers and architects.

This island branch would be their biggest project so far, because they will give justice to their profession by creating a hotel.

My attention darted to Sir Astrair who's busy with the blueprints in his table. I probably looked stupid thinking the things inside his head. What might that be? Am I even included to that? Did he ever think about it? Or maybe just like his other women, it's all nothing to him.

I just sighed and didn't think of it instead. I would rather do my work than busy myself with that.

"Erza. "I heard Sir Astrair said that made me turn to him immediately.

"Sir?" I answered. He didn't immediately respond and only stared at me intently.

"Come here." He said so I immediately walk towards him.

The moment I reached him, he immediately snaked his arms around my waist and sniffed on my hair. He's even playing his hands on my stomach.

"Did you sleep well?" He asked.

I immediately get away from him.

"What?" He asked curiously, maybe because of my sudden move.

"It's okay. I slept well. " I said nervously. Actually, I'm scared if someone heard us.

He didn't answer that made me look at him. He's staring at me closely now; it's giving me goosebumps.

"You don't want me to get close to you?" He said that made me silent.

I hope he understood the fact that I just don't want someone to misunderstood us. Well, they are really going to misunderstood us because there's really something going on. "Uh... I need to go." Then I walked away from him.

I didn't look back at him and just look at Sir Alstreim who's doing his works. I walk towards him and asked him what should I do to help him since my schedule is not yet fully furnished. "Since the blueprints isn't yet done. Just take your time enjoying." Sir Alstreim said that made me smile.

I am walking back on the small villa; there I saw Mira who's covering the bamboo walls with thick comforters. Maybe to ease some coldness.

"For what?" I still asked even though I have the idea.

"Uh, so that it's not that cold during evening." Mira said while in critical position up there.

How hardworking. She really hates this villa.

I just shook my head. Girls, girls, girls.

I am suddenly feeling bad. I feel like I'm being neglected and..... Alone. How funny, earlier I was all okay.

This is not the first time I ever felt this. Maybe because I'm scared and it's the first time that Sir Astrair became sweet to me. Most of the time he's annoying and pestering me. What if I fall on his trap?

But.. am I still falling or I already fell.

I already gave up on him. I gave him all of me. I gave my virginity to him that I promised myself that it should be only given to the man I love.

I shook my head. Since I have nothing else to do, I decided to go back to the construction area to at least help with the other workers.

When I'm almost there, I feel like I just want to run away again, away from here.

I saw Emerald and Sir Astrair very close with each other. Emerald's hands were on Sir Astrair's nape while my boss snaked his arms on her waist. I admit that they looked good together. Good for them.

I may be sound sarcastic but I really mean it. They look... great.

Since I can't find any valuable reason to run away from them, I bravely continue walking in Sir Grayson's area. Because if I'll run, I would only look like a stupid over acting girlfriend where in fact, I am not really his girlfriend. We are not together, so I have no rights to be mad or be angry or act like it. Because there's no us. If he wants to flirt, then he's free to do what he wants.

But for unknown reason. I am feeling heavy. I am at the verge of break down. Why am I suddenly feeling this?

Damn you Erza. You are an educated person, stop acting like you're not.

"Wow... What can I do for you, Miss Silence? " Sir Gray said that made me smile.

"I just want to know if I can help you with something since my interiors aren't needed yet." I said softly, trying to get rid of the ugly feeling inside me. "Well, I think you can help me with these designs, Miss." Sir Gray said and winked at me. I didn't help to at least smile though.

"Okay. "I said smiling now and sat on the chair in front of him.

We were brain storming about the designs. Sir Gray made me a judge to his designs and the pros and cons of each and such.

"You know what, Miss Silence. You're such a beauty. You're simple but Very. Very... Gorgeous." Sir Gray said that made me stop a bit. Well, I didn't expect that. Maybe he thought that I am now paying attention on him because I'm only staring on his face.

"Your thoughts were flying again." He said that made me blink many times.

"Ah, sorry. "I apologized. How embarrassing, and shocking at the same time.

"Mind telling me what is it?" He asked seriously.

I sighed. Should I tell him that I am feeling weak just because I saw Sir Astrair and Emerald almost hugging each other? That sounded so stupid, Erza. "Nothing, Sir. "I said, but I didn't help to look at the area of Air Astrair and Emerald.

I'm shocked when our eyes met, I feel like I am getting pushed from his angry glares.

He didn't even look away, it's like he's punishing me.

"Anyway, Erza. Is it true that Astrair and you were in a relationship?" Sir gray asked with a serious tone.

"No, Sir." I said honestly.

It's the truth, there's no us. What happened back there in Palawan is just a product of his abnormalities.

After few minutes, they announced that there's breaktime. I immediately went to my team and I thought they were just on the Villa.

They were not there, so I asked Enzo and he looked so down.

"Enzo, where are they?" I asked him softly.

"On the River. " He said and walk out.

I don't know what is happening to Enzo and he's acting like this. I miss that type of him where he is jolly.

I went to the river but I didn't saw them there. I only sat on the big rock and watch how the water flow.

I wanted to reflect about the bad decisions I did in my life. Those bad decisions that is making my insides crazy from pain.

My principles are haunting me. I broke my rules and I even let a man in my life. I just realized and reflected that having a man in a woman's life is good... but it's also a worse decision. I wouldn't have felt this pain if I didn't let anyone enter my life, I would have been focus with my career and dreams.

I don't know what is happening to me. Those things that I have been protecting for many years were gone in just a blink. That idea really frustrates me. I am not really doing good in this lifetime, I really suck.

I didn't even realize that there were tears in my cheeks.

This is all your fault, Erza. You're the same with other girls out there.

I removed my shirt and short and jumped off. I wanted my body to absorb the freshness of the water and to make me calm at least.

If only when I decide to get out from here, the pain inside me will be left behind.

The coldness of the water is making me feel good, at least.

I am letting out all of my frustrations by swimming to the depth of the water.

Damn good. So fresh.

When I swim up to breath. I almost screamed when someone grabbed my waist from behind and pulled me closer to his body.

My heart is thumping so hard upon seeing his face.

Did I fell for him already? I guess I won't feel like this if I didn't.

"Let's talk, Erza." He said softly while putting my arms on his neck.

Our chest was touching each other. That's why I can feel his warmth.

"Are you okay?" he said softly, as if he's scared to do something bad while pulling me even closer, like he's not contented with our closeness.

I didn't answer. I just looked at him. I'm scared to the fact that if I'll talk, I will end up crying.

"I'll take it as no. " He concluded and kissed me, since my lips were parted, it's much easier for him to claim my mouth.

I didn't help the tears that was flowing on my cheeks. The way he's kissing me is making my knees weak and I just want to sob even more.

I pushed him and tried to get away from him. But he pulled me back to him.

He claimed my lips over again, this is much powerful now. I slowly closed my eyes when he pulled back my hands and make it snaked on his neck.

I didn't even realize it, I didn't even realize that I am already answering his kisses.

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