Chapter 17
She took a step towards him dying to touch him, to feel her mate. Her skin was burning to feel his. He was quite tall and wonderfully carved out, well toned. The black t-shirt clung to his bulging muscles and she wanted nothing more than to feel his large arms around her. "Hell no!" he growled and his eyes blazed with fury. He saw the sad and dejected look on her face as his words shattered her. She halted realizing this wasn't the response she had hoped to get, unsure what to do. She nervously started to squeeze her fingers together to stop the shaking of her hands. "This has to be some fucking joke!" He cursed.
Out of all the ways Kiarra had envisioned meeting her mate this wasn't one of them. His eyes had gone cold and his expression hard. The chilling look he was giving her was terrifying. His words hit her hard and her wolf whined, hanging its head at the painful rejection.
He didn't want her. It hit heavy in the pit of her stomach. He didn't want her? The pain was becoming unbearable and for once in her life she was at a loss as to what to do. She had planned for a lot of things but not this, not how this felt. "Holy shit", Daniel cuts in staring back and forth with his mouth open and it was then that she noticed it wasn't just the two of them in the room. His brothers were joined by what looked like a group of pack members and they were all staring at her mouths wide open too at the scene unfolding before them.
She was vulnerable. Her cool confident demeanor was stripped away and she felt conscious with all the eyes staring at her but most of all his. She felt like he was measuring her as his eyes roved over her and she couldn't fight the shiver as her body responded to him. She wanted to ask him why. Was it because she was Lycan? Was she not his preference? Did she not meet his criteria? Though she pretended not to notice, men were always interested in her. It was hard not to with some of their advances.
For some reason Kiarra just couldn't find her voice. She could feel her heart beating in her throat.
He gestured towards her with his hands like she was some insignificant thing before him.
"Let's just get this over with and done." he said uncaringly. Her soft voice stopped him before he could start his line.
"Why?" she asked, her brows furrowed in confusion.
"Wait, wait, wait! Uhm let's just slow this down and uhm" Daniel had his hands raised walking in between them hesitantly, he looks at Samuel for help who has finally snapped out of the shock of the scene unfolding before him.
"I don't want her!" he said angrily and the room shook. She slightly jumped in fear. The room was so tense she could cut it with a knife. Say something Kiarra. Her throat felt dry and hurt terribly. She was unraveling inside.
"Let's take this somewhere more private", Samuel tried to interject but Zion wasn't having it. He knew from the determined look in his brother's eyes that his words would have no use.
"Everybody out!" Zion growled and there were hurried footsteps and doors slamming. The fury was radiating off of him in waves. The room emptied in seconds. The muscles in his jaw ticked.
"I'm your mate" Kiarra told him determinedly.
"Is that so?!" he laughed cruelly at her and her stomach tightened. "You thought that because you were a Lycan I would be all over you?!"
"Zion" Samuel and Daniel tried but they were shut down immediately.
"Silence!"
They both bared their neck in submission.
"You didn't even give me a chance", Kiarra interjected.
"What part of I don't want you don't you get? Do you want me to spell it out for you?" He questioned. "Don't tell me you're hard of hearing."
Kiarra eyes filled with tears stinging the edges. She sucked in her breath trying ease the pain that felt like it was going to eat her alive. She wondered if he knew that the unbearable pain was worse for her because she was Lycan. Everything was more intense for her and she was suffering.
She didn't know how much more she could bear. Your mate was supposed to be the one person who would want you no matter what.
"I Zion Cartier, Alpha of the Cartier Pack-"
"Wait!"
He stopped looking at her disdainfully.
"No. I won't accept it" she shook her head indignantly.
"This isn't how this works sweetheart." he replied.
"You can't reject me." Kiarra said firmly.
"You don't get to tell me what to do. Not now not ever." His emerald eyes flashed dangerously. "You are a mistake."
Her wolf howled from the hurt, huddled in a corner crying. Maybe there was something about her that could be fixed. Maybe there was something about her that she could change for him. She just didn't want to feel this pain.
Reaching forward she thought if maybe she touched him he would reconsider. That maybe the bond would touch something inside him so she tried to lessen the distance stretching out her hands.
"The moon goddess-"
"Do not fucking touch me" he snapped at her and she quickly recoiled her hand. " Do not put your damn hands on me."
"Is there somebody else?" she folded her hands, staring at him.
"Yes"
Who is she? Jealousy poured through her veins and her wolf wanted to know who had her mate. She could feel her claws itching to come out. He sighed and leaned forward and for a small second she was hopeful he would say something different. "You're a pretty woman. I'm sure you have men clambering over you and know just how to keep them. You seem experienced. You should have no problem finding a replacement."
Was he calling her a whore indirectly?
"You don't know anything about me and you have no right to talk about me like that."
"We're all grown in here and let's be honest, if I were to take you it would only be for some sex depending on how good you are at it and that's it."
She couldn't believe he would dare to speak to her in such a way. She was used to being held in a certain esteem. Nobody dared to ever even think of saying such things to her. But here it was coming from her mate as he tore her down bit by bit. She felt so small. "If I don't accept the rejection you can't go anywhere." she told him, stepping back from him.
He seemed surprised at her response and sneered at her.
"Well one way or another I'm getting rid of your ass."