The Daemon’s Eyes

Sabrina's P.O.V

Have you ever been stuck between two options? And no matter how hard you try you can't pick one over the other? Yeah, I think I was in that situation.

Logan, a spirit I met on mere coincidence. He's spent quite a while with me...

Like... I had no friends before we met. Normally, I'd just come home after school, do my assignments, eat dinner, watch something, read the Azacarus, then go to bed after. I've been repeating that whole sequence for as long as I can remember!

Just having someone to talk to was actually a pretty nice experience. I mean, someone to share laughs with, ideas, fights...

Jasper on the other hand, he'd always been a class ahead of me. We both went to the same middle school and I won't lie, he was one of the coolest people I knew. He's far nicer than Logan....

How would I describe our relationship now? Yeah, he asked me to be his girlfriend a while back and there was no way in hell I'd reject! I mean.... Someone actually liked me! Did I like him back? I did.

Although the way he'd started getting close to me was somewhat suspicious and I'd had my defenses up for a while. It didn't make him relent though...

I mean, I was so rude to him but he didn't give up. He saved me a bunch of times from getting picked on, even got suspended because of me!

Jasper was a blessing.

But I keep thinking about that night he got possessed by Logan, who made love to me that night?

I keep trying to tell myself it was Jasper but my whole body and mind knows it was Logan. Why'd he do such a thing just to come back and tell me he was in love with someone else? Was I actually in love with him? I wasn't sure, it felt more like lust. I couldn't just forget about that day, the way he made me feel, the way he made my heart race, the way my body ached.... They say you never forget your first time, I guess it was true.

Lust. It was a deadly thing.

I looked up to my phone raised above my head as I laid back flat on my bed. My phone had been on airplane mode for almost twenty-four hours now.

I changed the settings and messages came pouring in. New messages on our school group on WhatsApp, some emails and two messages from Jasper.

I couldn't help but smile at the thought. "Jasper", almost felt my cheeks heat up at the thought of us cuddling.

#Jas: Miss you.^. [yesterday 20:15pm]

#Jas: Where are you?! Your line has been busy since yesterday! >_<[today 17:28pm]

#Me: Sorry, I accidentally left it on airplane mode ;-; [today 19:23pm]

...typing....

I felt my myself smile for some reason, was he sleeping in my DMs or something?

#Jas: Don't do that! I started thinking you lost your phone or something! What if I'd come bursting through your front door? [today 19:24pm]

I laughed.

#Me: Then you'd answer to my father while I stand at the rails acting like I don't know you >< [today 19:24pm]

#Jas: You'd deny me babe? [today 19:25pm]

#Me: ^^ [today 19:25pm]

#Jas: Brad and his sister left a while ago, they've been coming more often than before. [today 19:26pm]

#Me: I hope you've been preparing for your exams? Don't just play games all day! [today 19:26pm]

#Jas: Okay mummy, I'll do my best to read [today 19:27pm]

#Me: ^^ Lol, I'm being fr though? [today 19:28pm]

#Jas: We'll, still have a little headache with physics.... [today 19:28pm]

#Me: Have you decided on a university yet? [today 19:29pm]

My heart started pounding after I typed those words, I'd overheard him tell Brad he'd be going to the capital. Would he lie to me to keep me from freaking out? I mean, we had just a few months left together! And I got him suspended! I slapped my forehead.

...typing....

#Jas: It's a secret, but I'll tell you the next time we see [today 19:31pm]

#Me: What if I wanted to know now? [today 19:31pm]

#Jas: How about you? What uni would you like to go to? [today 19:32pm]

Nice one Jasper. You completely diverted my question back to me.

I chuckled under my breathe.

#Me: I still have a whole year to think about that! And I might want to go to yours... >3< [today 19:33pm]

#Jas: If that happens, I'd be really happy. But I can't assure you about not having a baby at some point >< [today 19:33pm]

#Me: Lmaoooo! My father would literally kill me! [today 19:33pm]

#Jas: My dad won't really mind ;) If we'd get married later that is.... [today 19:34pm]

#Me: @~@ Your dad is chill asf! I'm jealous! [today 19:34pm]

#Jas: I think you should just talk things out with your dad, I mean... you're all he's got! I might come over and talk to him sometime. [today 19:35pm]

His words made me smile for some reason, although it was a delicate topic to me.

"Dinner time, Sabrina!", I heard fathers Voice echo up the stairs.

"Speak of the devil", I sighed before rolling my eyes.

#Me: I'm going to have dinner, make sure you eat too. [today 19:37pm]

#Jas: Okay mummy -^- [today 19:37pm]

I hopped off my bed and to my feet. Leaving my phone on the bed because father had a lot of rules on the table.... Dinner was always boring.

Jasper's P.O.V

By the time it had gotten to 19:40pm and she hadn't replied, I knew she must have gone to eat. Sabrina....

I shook my head a bit. Was I going too fast? Or was I going too slow?

I sighed before going through our texts one more time. She asked about my choice of university and I didn't want to tell her I was going to the capital over the phone. Didn't want to lie to her either....

I wish I could stay here and live with her, but there wasn't any good university here in Hermilton. I wanted to have top education, make a lot of money, then make Sabrina the happiest woman ever. How many years would that take? I was going too fast, yeah!

And dad was getting transferred to the capital in a few months!

But what if she finds someone better? Or doesn't like me till then?

I rolled over to lie on my back. "Don't think too much", I told myself.

"Just don't fuck this up".

Even if I had to break her heart by going far away, I'd still come back for her.

This feeling..... it's love, isn't it?