Chapter 35 - Returning to my rejected mate
Shay's Point of View
I shake my head, staring at Zane.
"Seriously? Okay yeah, I know I didn't react very well to the situation but what do you expect? I can't stand her. And she was trying to get a rise out of me. Which she did. And I'm sorry I didn't handle it very well. And if anyone knew what happened they'd understand why I react to her the way I do. But you know what.. No, I'm not really sorry with how I acted. I could have handle it better, more diplomatic but I'm not sorry. She is trying to make me look like a bad person and you are just allowing her to do and say what she wants regarding me."
Zane frowns.
"That's not true. I told her to apologize, and she did, you just didn't want to accept it. I also called her to my office and told her to stop what she's doing. That's what you saw when you came." "What I saw when I came, was you once again standing very close to your, barely dressed, ex and allowing her to touch you. And regarding the apology. You didn't even immediately demand one. You were standing there contemplating whether or not to choose my side. And how can you expect me to accept her obviously fake apology after she once again implied I don't care about others, I just care about what I want because I'm to be the luna. And what is with the touching? She was practically standing right on top of you with her hand on your chest telling me she wouldn't want me to feel uncomfortable in your pack. Like she is someone important in the pack. You didn't even pick up on that because your to focused on how I acted. And again now. Why was she standing so close to you, touching you? Do you want her too?"
"No of course I don't want her touching me. I just don't want to be rude."
"Oh! You didn't want to be rude. Well go right ahead then. Please be more considered about what your ex is feeling, clearly it's more important than how I feel. Why do you care so much about what she thinks?"
"It's not just her. It's the entire pack. It's important to me what they think of you. First impression are important. And right now most of their impression is that you are self-centered and that you think your better than them. And my dad is pissed, you're the furture luna and if the people don't like you we're going to have a problem."
"I don't care what your dad thinks! Honestly! And they only did that because your precious Lisa spread her rumors and lies. Your people don't know me but they know Lisa. I'm pretty sure everyone knows she wants to be luna and that she twists things to fit her narrative. If your people.. if you and your father got to know me at all you'd know that what she's saying and implying about me is out of pure jealousy. But clearly you don't know me and you are reprimanding me because I reacted badly, one afternoon, to your ex that made a scene.."
I shake my head and stand up.
"Shay we're still talking. Were are you going?"
Zane asks frowning, now also standing from his chair.
"No, we're not. We're done. I can't do this.. I don't want to do this. If you and your father think this low of me, and that I'd be a terrible luna then I'm just wasting my time here. We're just wasting each other's time. I'm going downstairs to have dinner. And tomorrow I'm having a girls day with Amy and Megan and then I'm going back to my brother's pack." "Shay, please."
Zane moves around his desk and tries to reach for me but I step back, shaking my head. "No. You're supposed to be on my side. To make sure Lisa stays away from you. From us and to stay in her lane. Your supposed to help the pack see me for me.. Not the picture she's painting. You're supposed to protect and stand by me. And your failing miserably in that regard. As long as she's still here, and you and your father care more about your reputation than doing what's right, there's no future for us. I can't deal with something like this everytime she picks a fight. And she will. Because she knows you won't do anything, and she knows you won't stand by me. So I think it's better if I leave. We can ask Zayde whether or not he wants to stay here. But I'm leaving the day after tomorrow."
I turn and walk from his office, not giving him a chance to say anything else and quickly make my way to our room to go get Zayde for dinner.
I stop outside Zayde's door, quickly wiping the tears from my face before I take a deep breath and open the door.
Zayde is sitting on the floor, playing with blocks but he looks up at me, smiling, when I step inside.
I smile back at him.
"Hi baby. How long have you been awake?"
He shurgs, continuing to play with his blocks.
"Not long. You weren't in your room so I just stayed here and played with my blocks waiting for you."
I sit down next to him.
"Sorry I was with your dad."
Zayde looks at me about to say something when he closes his mouth and frowns.
"Why are you crying?"
I give him a big smile.
"I'm not crying. See."
He touches my face.
"Your eyes and face is red, like when you cry." He frowns again and looks down at the blocks in
his hand. "He made you cry again didn't he?" He looks up at me. "It was daddy." He answers his
own question nodding his head, not giving me a chance to answer him.
I sigh and brush my fingers through his hair.
"Me and daddy had a fight."
"Are we leaving?"
"Mommy is. The day after tomorrow I'm going back to uncle Dan's pack."
"Do I have to leave too?"
He asks with a small voice and I shake my head pulling him into my lap.
"No baby. You can stay here if you want. Your daddy, and grandparents still want to spend some time with you."
"But what about you?"
I smile and kiss his forehead.
"I'll be okay. Mommy is a big girl. I'll miss you, but you can come see me anytime you want. I'm
sure your grandma or Aunty Meg or Amy will bring you over anytime you ask. or I'll come visit you here."
"Can I really stay a little while longer? I like it here.."
"I know baby. And yes, you can stay here for a while longer. Now, come on, let's go downstairs and get something to eat."
Zayde nods and we get up, heading out of the room and downstairs to the dining room.
I let out a breath I didn't even realize I was holding when I saw Zane wasn't at dinner.
I smile at Diana, Megan and Amy as Zayde and I go get our food before joining them.
Diana gives me a small smile.
"I heard what happened. Are you okay?"
She asks, squeezing my hand.
I give her a small smile but before I can say anything Zayde answers his grandmother.
"Daddy made her cry. She's leaving."
All eyes at our table snap to me.
Jake frowns.
"What does he mean you're leaving?"
"Oh, so you're talking to me now? Just that.. I'm leaving the day after tomorrow. I'm going back
to my pack."
"But you and Zane.."
Amy says with a frown and I give her a small smile, shaking my head.
"There is no Zane and me."
They all look at each other and Ryan frowns looking back at me.
"Are you saying you're over?"
I nod, taking a bite of my food.
"Yes."
"What the hell happened today? What did I miss?"
Megan asks with a frown looking around the table.
I sigh and look at Zayde, seeing him deep in conversation with Jason before I turn to look at
them. Briefly I explain what happened at the ice cream shop and in Zane's office.
Diana frowns and makes to stand but I stop her, shaking my head.
"Leave it."
"But Shay.."
"No. This is between me and Zane."
I say with a firm tone and look her in the eye.
Her frown deepens but she nods and sits down.
I look at the rest of them.
"That counts for all of you. This is between me and Zane. Please respect that."
I look down, continuing to eat my food, clearly putting an end to the conversation.