My Sister's Boyfriend

"Because you don't!" You're past!

"Then why are you here?" He said softly, almost sweetly.

"Because you asked for it.

- And why did you listen to me, Malu? Why, then?

"I don't know, okay?" I do not know. I grabbed my bag, getting ready to get up. Igor's voice pinned me to my place, a tone of desolation, he looked hurt and hurt.

- Where are you going, Malu? Why do you always have to leave when I'm happy just to have you close to me?

Mute; My throat was dry, my eyes filled with tears, but I held them tightly, sucking in the air. Why did he do this to me? I didn't know how to feel in those moments, with Igor looking at me imploringly. I didn't know if I felt angry, spiteful, or... I didn't know, I couldn't complete my options. But I hated that feeling. I remained silent, Igor continued to speak:

"Why do you do that, Malu?" Why do you always run away from me? Is it for the pleasure of knowing that I'm going to go after you every time? Is it for the certainty that I will never be able not to look for you wherever I go? "What do you want me to do?" I lamented, getting up. He stood up along with me, blocking my passage.

"I don't know, say you don't want me to come after you!" Never again, definitively. He says it now, looking into my eyes.

"You wouldn't listen to me. I closed my eyes, then opened them again. Feeling tired, but at the same time alert. My heart was tired and my body felt more alive than ever.

"You're right... You're absolutely right! But, could you say that? Could you ask for something like that?

"I'll leave if you want, I'll leave if you want, Igor.

"But I don't want to!" - Me neither! I screamed with my eyes, but I couldn't say it out loud. It was too much even for me.

"So you understand me.

"So you can't leave me either?"

"I can, I've always been able to.

"You need to lie a little better if you want to convince me." I pushed him aside, trying to get past him, who held my arm. I felt electrocuted and stopped, panting.- Hey, don't go away. "You promised you would behave!"

"And you promised you'd never leave me." - it sounded like a confusing conversation. Were we talking about the present or the past? Or is it just about us? I was so... Confused.

"I never wanted that promise.

"You've never had to do it, it's the kind of oath that will always remain no matter what. Even though we're far apart, Malu. You'll never leave me. His hand went down my arm and stopped in my hand, squeezing it tightly and pulling it to his chest, placing it on top of the warm cloth of his shirt, right on top of his heart. I closed my eyes, opened them again, pulled my hand away, but was overcome by the firm grip of his hand.

"You talk like you're me, like you know how I feel.

"So you're going to say you don't feel anything for me?"

"You really want to know, Igor?" I've always been true to you. And now I...

-You...?

"I don't know what I feel about you anymore. I murmured coldly, letting go of his hand and his warm grip. I turned, walking to the exit.

"Malu, wait..." I walked quickly out of the restaurant, feeling his equally quick footsteps behind me.